Patience​ ​and​ ​“the​ ​Process” – Anina

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I​ ​love​ ​goals.

Goals​ ​are​ ​a​ ​part​ ​of​ ​what​ ​makes​ ​life​ ​interesting​ ​and​ ​challenging.​ ​If​ ​we​ ​didn’t​ ​have​ ​goals​ ​we wouldn’t​ ​get​ ​anywhere.

I’ve​ ​never​ ​been​ ​one​ ​to​ ​really​ ​love​ ​the​ ​process​ ​to​ ​the​ ​goal​ ​though.​ ​The​ ​goal​ ​was​ ​what​ ​I cared​ ​about,​ ​whatever​ ​was​ ​in​ ​between​ ​me​ ​and​ ​my​ ​goal​ ​was​ ​the​ ​annoying​ ​part.​ ​The​ ​faster I​ ​could​ ​get​ ​to​ ​said​ ​goal​ ​the​ ​better​ ​because​ ​I​ ​could​ ​then​ ​move​ ​on​ ​to​ ​my​ ​next​ ​goal.

I’ve​ ​never​ ​been​ ​very​ ​good​ ​at​ ​being​ ​patient.

You​ ​know​ ​those​ ​sayings​ ​your​ ​parents​ ​have​ ​that​ ​are​ ​constantly​ ​repeated​ ​to​ ​you​ ​to​ ​the point​ ​you​ ​know​ ​them​ ​by​ ​heart​ ​and​ ​you​ ​annoyingly​ ​find​ ​yourself​ ​repeating​ ​to​ ​yourself​ ​in applicable​ ​moments?​ ​Growing​ ​up​ ​my​ ​mom​ ​would​ ​constantly​ ​remind​ ​us,​ ​“patience​ ​is​ ​a​ ​virtue.” My​ ​dad,​ ​“it’s​ ​not​ ​about​ ​the​ ​goal,​ ​it’s​ ​about​ ​the​ ​process.​ ​Enjoy​ ​it.”

Enjoying​ ​the​ ​process​ ​and​ ​being​ ​patient.​ ​Who​ ​knew​ ​these​ ​two​ ​would​ ​mean​ ​so​ ​much​ ​to​ ​me.

Stopping​ ​swimming​ ​has​ ​opened​ ​up​ ​a​ ​world​ ​of​ ​possibilities​ ​for​ ​me.​ ​I​ ​can​ ​do​ ​so​ ​many​ ​things now​ ​that​ ​I​ ​couldn’t​ ​do​ ​before.​ ​I​ ​can​ ​have​ ​new​ ​goals.​ ​New​ ​goals​ ​mean​ ​starting​ ​at​ ​the​ ​bottom again—the​ ​beginning​ ​of​ ​the​ ​process.

Having​ ​new​ ​goals​ ​means​ ​being​ ​patient​ ​with​ ​myself​ ​and​ ​taking​ ​a​ ​day​ ​at​ ​a​ ​time.​ ​I​ ​can’t​ ​be​ ​the best​ ​at​ ​something​ ​on​ ​day​ ​one…at​ ​least​ ​not​ ​for​ ​things​ ​that​ ​are​ ​worth​ ​it.

I​ ​need​ ​to​ ​enjoy​ ​today.​ ​Enjoy​ ​the​ ​process.​ ​And​ ​be​ ​patient​ ​because​ ​all​ ​things​ ​that​ ​are​ ​worth working​ ​for​ ​take​ ​time.

Anina

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